My favorite thing....

Serenditpity

This past week, I had a particularly rough day.  It was one of those days when I felt depleted and defeated all before I got to work.  
I pulled into the parking lot,
parked my car,
and started walking towards the beginning of my work day.

I started to pay attention to what I was saying  to myself,
 all negative, 
and then thought of 
Lousie Hay 



and her advice on positive affirmations.



I then tried to change my self-defeating thoughts to something more positive.
I thought, I will think of something positive and write it down 100 times so it sticks.

All the while walking in telling myself not to cry.

As soon as I got into school, 
I saw one of my new little friends
who was on his way back to class after going to the nurse's office.
(He needed a belt, but he said she wasn't there.)
I told him to go back in an hour.
He exclaimed, "An hour?!"
I then said, "Maybe 15 minutes then."

He walked away holding onto his belt loops feeling a little more reassured.

I then saw a fellow colleague, and we chatted down the hallway.
She asked how I was doing?
I said "Alllll-right?" 
 wiping an escaped tear from my cheek as I walked towards my classroom.

When I walked in 
I was met with the students on the rug and a substitute in the room.

One student was at her desk and she said,
"Mrs. Steele, I have something for you.
She then handed me a dragonfly charm and said, "I remembered you liked dragonflies from last year."

Dragonflies have been a sign to me within hours of my father's passing.
They show up when I least expect it but when I need them the most.
This card was found by my sister in law months after my dad's passing.
: )

It was as if that child had handed me the hand of God himself.

I looked at it and couldn't believe my eyes.

I gave her a hug and asked the teacher if I could excuse myself and then went into the empty lunchroom and had myself a very good cry.

"There are more tears shed over answered prayers than over unanswered prayers."
St. Teresa of Avila






4 comments:

  1. That is so beautiful, I can relate. I love dragon flies and to me they are a sign of courage and a message from your dad. One day I was feeling so distraught and lonely and I asked God, how can I get rid of these feelings. I then thought go visit a neighbor and put your pain away for now. Sometimes I feel my thoughts of changing my negatives are from God. After my visit my neighbor walked me home. We got to my house and she said Kathy, that is odd. I said what is? (I am not very observant) she laughed and said look all over your lawn, driveway and car!! There were dragonflies everywhere; but not in anyone else's yard, just mine. I laughed and ran in and got the poem and showed her. She had tears in her eyes and so did I, she said you must need A LOT OF COURAGE!!! because they covered everything. We both laughed and I felt God's presence and answer. He never forgets us, He is always watching over us. I am so in AWE of his love for me because sometimes I just don't think I am lovable; but He always does. That was a beautiful story Lizbeth, Thank you,
    Love, Kathy

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  2. Thanks Aunt Kathy,
    I knew you would get me!! : )
    Love, Lizbeth x,o

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  3. It's so beautiful to have a symbol like that showing up as a sign. The dragonfly is beautiful, I think it's a beautiful word too. And how special your student remembered you love them and gave you this one. I can imagine your tears.

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  4. Good to hear from you Esther!! Thank you for your kind words! : )

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