This past week, I had a particularly rough day. It was one of those days when I feltdepleted and defeated all before I got to work.
I pulled into the parking lot,
parked my car,
and started walking towards the beginning of my work day.
I started to pay attention to what I was saying to myself, all negative, and then thought of Lousie Hay
and her advice on positive affirmations.
I then tried to change my self-defeating thoughts to something more positive. I thought, I will think of something positive and write it down 100 times so it sticks. All the while walking in telling myself not to cry. As soon as I got into school, I saw one of my new little friends who was on his way back to class after going to the nurse's office.
(He needed a belt, but he said she wasn't there.) I told him to go back in an hour. He exclaimed, "An hour?!" I then said, "Maybe 15 minutes then." He walked away holding onto his belt loops feeling a little more reassured. I then saw a fellow colleague, and we chatted down the hallway. She asked how I was doing? I said "Alllll-right?" wiping an escaped tear from my cheek as I walked towards my classroom. When I walked in I was met with the students on the rug and a substitute in the room.
One student was at her desk and she said,
"Mrs. Steele, I have something for you.
She then handed me a dragonfly charm and said, "I remembered you liked dragonflies from last year."
Dragonflies have been a sign to me within hours of my father's passing.
They show up when I least expect it but when I need them the most.
This card was found by my sister in law months after my dad's passing.
It was as if that child had handed me the hand of God himself.
I looked at it and couldn't believe my eyes.
I gave her a hug and asked the teacher if I could excuse myself and then went into the empty lunchroom and had myself a very good cry.
"There are more tears shed over answered prayers than over unanswered prayers."
St. Teresa of Avila